HAPPY BIRTHDAY ~

A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ASHLEIGH! xx

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When I saw everyone at the college open evening, I thought I'm gunna be knowing these people in a year. I'm gunna be making friends with these people. But then I realise it's all a pipe dream. I won't make friends, I won't get all A's, I won't look my best. I'll just be the same underconfident loser I always was and will be. I felt ugly and terribly fat. And yes I know I'm not fat and no I don't have an eating disorder. I simply do not have enough courage to have one. It would bring too much attention and the pain of hunger would seriously not agree with me. Also I couldn't bring myself to throw up because it would damage my teeth. Which seem to be the only decent part of my body. Well until the surgeon wrecked them.

Exam week this week, god almighty I totally failed geography.
I've ran out of interest to write things lately. I'll be back soon.