DAY OUT. ~

Don't you love bank holidays? Everyone's off and happy. They could do to be in term time though.. Been out all day, in the beautiful sunshine, got in a mood a few times but hey - that's life!
Walked round the walls and went to this random park place, the reason for my mood, cos I cannot stand parks, full of noisy brats who cry just cos they fell off the roundabout.

Anyways here's some of my photos -



The rest won't upload..

VIVID DREAMS. ~

I watched Slum Dog Millionaire last night and I can't really remember but I think the people off it were in my dream. I don't know what's happening to me but I keep having really vivid dreams, last night I dreamt that I kept needing loads of wees but the only toilet was in the middle of a busy field, so I kept having to go in front of everyone. It was strange.
My mind works in weird ways..
Been on the first bike ride in ages.. Woo, I'm gunna sort myself out, and I mean it this time, I may have had coco pops for breakfast and ate a few more biscuits for lunch, but I'm exercising, I feel really fat and I know I'm not, I don't have an eating disorder but I need to exercise!
I took some photos of my Crayolas cos I love them so:

AFRAID. ~

Last night I had the most beautiful dream - it in all rights should have been a nightmare, but it was too moving or is eccentric the right word?

The field's grass moves gently in the breeze, the sky is turning the slightest colour of mauve. The fear is unmovable, it cannot be erased. The house it stands there alone in this wilderness - it is the centre of all attention. For the wrong reasons.

The next part is a blur. So I'll skip a bit. I know the story, I know I was with someone which I think was male.
But basically I was in a field in the middle of nowhere on the edge of a dark forest and anything that entered this man's garden was killed and he ate it for tea. It sounds humourous but really it was poignant. I remember running away - I never actually saw his face. But I remember the midnight black horse's face... The fear in it's eyes made me turn around. Then I woke up..

I could turn this into a story y'know!

OMG OMG OMG OMG. ~

Last night I was estatic, we're off on holiday with the Dyson's next year AGAIN! WOO!!!! This is the best news, this means that my best friend Josh (LOL) is coming and I GET TO ASK A FRIEND.
I couldn't ask for more, another holiday of a lifetime? Bring it on.
I would give up coco pops to do this every year.

A LOOK INTO THE PAST. ~

A year on and I will know my GCSE results. Woah, scary.
I printed off some pictures, wanna see some?

My little sister, Lucy.

(L to R) Amy Tomlinson, Amy Barnett, ME, Ashleigh Smith.

Me being attacked by Amy.

Trying to pull an alien face and suceeding. (Yes, it's me.)

Me (at the front) and Amy Barnett.

Me stuffing buns down my face.

Ashleigh and I before our outing.

Ashleigh on the tree swing!

I really hate it when blogger makes the quality go bad, I mean, these are perfect but they look all blurry, it's silly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ~

4 days ago my blog became 6 months old, happy half birthday bloggy!
The past two nights I have had 4 really good dreams, I wanna know what they mean, but the things on the internet are useless.
I have tumblr but all the good pictures I have I got off there.. Hmm, no one even follows me, so I just abandon it.. Poor me.
LA LA LA, I'm just trundling through life atm. Not much going on so bye!
I can't even be bothered to find a nice picture, see you all soon!

TA RA ~

As I sit here playing "This is the life" on my guitar. I think, no it is not. In this month I have already said that quote, and that was whilst I was lazing in an extremely comfortable hammock in the blazing hot sun.
Tomorrow I'm gunna pull myself together, I'm gunna get up, wash my face and brace the world with what I can offer. I'm gunna make my feet pound on the road as I run, I'm going to wear my tyres down on my bike whilst I peddle AND I'M GOD DAMN IT NOT GUNNA EAT NO MORE BOURBONS! Well maybe one.
Ta ra. (Btw us English lot really do not say that.)

WHO ATE ALL THE PIES? ~

So, my mum has this idea that by this week we should be up by 10, then next week like 9, so we can get used to going back to school in like I think it's 2 weeks. OMG. I can't deal with this.
Besides, I have a life theory, there is actually point in getting up. Since I am sitting here pointlessly writing to no one cos it isn't interesting, but I have to do something to keep me occupied. Though if asked "Would you like to shorten your summer holidays?" I would be like. OMG YOU ARE SICK IN THE MIND.
There is only so long I can brush my teeth for before they bleed, so I need to find something to do. Something exhilarating, something intriguing. Something exciting, something new. Ok, if the weathers good tomorrow, I'm going for a run. I love running yet I haven't done it in ages. Why not? Cos I'm a lazy shit.
WE RAN OUT OF BOURBONS!!!!!!!! (Cos I ate them all.)

MORE POUNDS THAN JEREMY CLARKSON ~

I'm suffering from the aftermath of watching a 'feel good film'. I even looked up how to get my hair like SJP's. HAHA. Yeah right, can you see me (bed head) styling my hair every morning. I don't even have a shower on a morning, I have one on a night. So, I therefore cannot do all the styling nessecary. This would mean getting up at an ungodly hour. I think I'll stick to the natural look thanks.
I'm off to watch Harry Potter at the cinema today, joy of joys. No it will be ok, I'm going with mum and Lucy so it should be ok, the only problem is, is that they are bringing Revels. Omg, I'm gunna stuff my face. I lost 4 pounds on holiday due to being sick but I'm rapidly gaining the weight. I haven't actually weighed myself since but I feel fat so I must be. Yeah man.
It's a Sunday, I wanna have an adventure.

INSPIRATION IS KEY ~

Caster Semenya, yes she looks and sounds like a man but could this just be a bit of bad luck? They should do the tests yes, but they should have kept it quiet and only announced it if she really was hiding a penis. How would you feel if someone questioned your gender and then announced it in public? I would be devastated.
I'm quite happy today, I am going to watch Taylor Swift in the near future and my dad is giving me driving lessons. Wooop!
I feel very inspired today, it comes from reading a magazine and seeing all those little post it notes that thingsweforget.blogspot.com do, I love them and think they're awesome! I feel like doing excercise but what is there to do around here?

SORRY BUT I FEEL THIS WAY ~

I like to write on my blog every day, but I'm going to find this hard due to the fact I HAVE NOTHING TO DO! Maybe I should just blog about world issues.
OMG, a terroist got released from prison JUST because he's got cancer, COMPASSIONATE GROUNDS?! I'll give him compassionate fucking grounds, he cruelly took away 270 lives or whatever, these were innocent civilians! There's no compassion in that whatsoever. Those families have lost their relatives and friends forever, and he gets released just cos he's dying. I'M FUCKING GLAD HE'S DYING, THE UNFEELING CUNT.
See if I ran the world, it would be a better place, every frikkin' ditch would be searched until that RAG 'ED stupid Osama Bin Laden was found, then every form of torture would be displayed upon him UNTIL HE DIES. I don't care, he has bombed many places around the world, JUST COS WE ARE WESTERNERS. WELL HE'S A FUCKING MUSLIM. Sorry for being racist, please do not report me, he is racist to us, you are racist to me. I'm sorry. I JUST FEEL STRONGLY ABOUT HIM BLOWING UP PEOPLE. (You don't see us lot bombing, ok we shoot but there's more shooting in America.)
I'll shut up now.
I'm off to town soon, so see ya.

Or maybe we should turn him into this?? I'm sure there's a machine capable somewhere, he may need to dye his beard though!

I LOVE MY FAMILY ~

Yesterday I realised, hey wait a minute, I've been living with these 3 other people for 15 years (well only with Lucy for 11 but y'know) and I've never really asked myself anything about them. I've finally realised that they love me for who I am, not just because they have to. I was quite down yesterday and they didn't ignore it, they comforted me. And it made me realise that I really love them too.
I never want to be lonely, I could never live on my own, I couldn't even bare staying in my room on my own yesterday. This also made me realise that one day no matter how horrible this sounds, my parents are gunna die. I can't bare the thought, I think I may slip into depression when it finally happens. I'm glad my dad gave up smoking 4 years ago. It makes me happy, that soon he will live as long as the rest of us. God bless.

STOP BREAKING THE RULES ~

I'm breaking this rule again, this rule of not posting more than once a day, I don't want to be the annoying type with all the updates flooding onto everyone's homepage - I just felt the need to write.
All that happiness that was floating around me has disappeared, I knew it wouldn't last. It's all my fault as well, now I know it couldn't be helped but still.. I told Charlie I'd rather be friends with him. I just have this image of him being really sad and this is what upsets me, I hate to make people sad, I'm an annoying person, but I'm not Hitler.
Another reason is that I just can't get Mexico out of my head, it's there and staying. It's worse at night, the memories come back and I need to be there, at night before I go to sleep I don't have the thoughts buzzing around in my heads, the ideas, the plans about my future, whilst at night I always think about the past, reflect on my life, think about what I've done. In the day I think about my future. I expect the feeling will get less over time but right now I long to be back in the sun, with the people I feel most comfortable with. My family. I expect it will be harder to sleep tonight with the extra niggles.
Right, now I've let it all out, I'm gunna sort myself out, get a grip, if Hitler had cried like this he would have failed earlier in WW2.

CREATIVE SPURT ~

I had a creative spurt, I made something for my wall, I also counted my finances with the help of Charlie. Come to think of it I also priced up my trip around the world. So far I have to save up £150,416. I may be waiting a while. A lot of whiles actually. I need a job. Now. Please. Now excuse me I am in planning mode. I also really need to go explore and find things to take photos of. I'm trying to sell my photos!
I wish my French was fluent. I love France, I want to speak fluent Spanish and Italian. I'm quite good at French and German. But Germans's useless. No offence Deutschlanders.

AN INSIGHT ~

Today is the start of the rest of my life - though every day is really. I feel strangely positive and happy. This is a good thing. I want to dance, but I can't. I've started a kind of auto-biography. I'll give you a sneeky peeky.

"If someone asked me to describe myself there would be no hesitation. I am a Total-Spaz. Capitals and all."

Infact I may put that in my description of myself! I want to be wise, this is silly but I've always respected those guys who levitate and live in rural India. I have been to India, I should have visited them and got some tips. I'm not living a life off houmous though!
I really think Mexico has given me this insight/inspiration. I don't know how or why but it's made me appreciate my lifestyle. I didn't miss my laptop, guitar, tv or phone at all. (I still had my iPod.) (Shh.)
I'm really more mature than all you tyrants think.
P.S Like my new layout?

THE BEST TIME OF MY LIFE ~

I love my life, Mexico was seriously the best time of my life, maybe apart from Australia. So much happened I can't write about it all, my head is streaming full of memories - all happy ones, I'm even more nostalgic than usual. I want to live there. It's that good.
The highlight probably had to be snorkelling in the ocean and seeing Nurse Sharks, Sea Turtles, Rays and Baracudas in the wild. The sea was a mixture of beautiful turquoise, royal blues and greens. At one point it reached 45 degrees (celcius). I bonded with everyone on the holiday and I couldn't get the laughs and great times out of my head if I wanted. It almost makes me cry with happiness. I have so many great photographs that I will cherish for the rest of my life, I'm sure I'll also cherish the memories.
P.S Wild parties on the beach are so fun!