People don't understand and never will.

The reason I have spent so long away from this blog is because I hate the outlook of it. I hate the way it's so lonely because no one comments or even reads it. But what I do like about it is that I can spill my true feelings somewhere and no one can judge it.
I think sometimes in life you've gotta bring yourself down a little bit. I was living the high life, oh Christmas, you get presents, everything is fine. La, la, la. No that's just a holiday to drown your fears in festive drinks. I more likely drowned my self in saturated fats. The point I'm trying to make is that, people still hate me no matter how I do my hair or how much weight I lose. People still think I'm the annoying little girl who doesn't know anything.
Why is everything so complicated? Why do I like someone (as a friend I might add) but they keep hurting me? Why do I let them? They think they can use me for pokemon cards or whatever fad they're going through. But they don't understand the concept of true friendship. He moans on his facebook about people 'leaving' him and not staying friends with him. I have never 'left' him. I'm always there listening to his continuous moaning about some slag who he's obsessed with or his inevitable nagging for gifts that I can't or won't afford.
Well it's time to change.
No one will get through to the wall I'm putting up.
(That was a metaphor btw.)