DEAR EVERYONE AND ANYONE I EVER OFFENDED.

If anyone reads both blogs then you will have read this twice. I'm sorry but today I really can't be bothered writing for both.
I speak my mind. I speak the confusing swirls of thought patterns travelling around in it. Sometimes it's too hard to explain so it doesn't come out how I mean. And sometimes I say things that should never be said, that should never leave my brain. I can't explain my thoughts, my mind, my wellbeing. But I can explain that whatever I say, I will probably forget I said it, and I will think something else totally different the next day.
For example on my Tumblr account I may have put: "My friends are immature and annoying." I mean WHY THE FUCK did I put that? Ok, they are immature, BUT I AM THE MOST IMMATURE OUT OF THEM ALL. Ok, they might be annoying BUT I AM THE MOST ANNOYING OUT OF THEM. I try to change my ways, I try to be less grumpy, less annoying, less silly, less immature, less corrosvie, less TOTALLY IDIOTIC. But I always slip. I don't know why or how, but it's impossible, it's my makeup, how I am.
So dear my friends particularly Ashleigh:
I'm sorry for any bitchy unfeeling comments. I'm sorry for annoying you. I'm sorry for being persistent, I'm sorry for being moany, I'm sorry for being me, I'm sorry for being alive, I'm sorry for anything I could possibly do to annoy you in any way.
Cos I forgot I wrote it and I shouldn't have, I don't even think that no more, I just thought it that one day when one of you probably dismissed something I said and did something else. That's another thing I gotta work on, insecruity.